"My parents love you. my mom said she can tell i act myself when I'm with you, cause I never did that with other girls"

so...

i told my mama about brandon. verrrry interesting. if anyone who's reading this right now really knows me..i don't tell my mom about any boys. she's the typical asian mom who says "YOU CAN'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND UNTIL YOU'RE DONE WITH SCHOOL!" yeah..but i asked her if she liked brandon and she goes "WHY! do you like him?" hahaha! but with a smile on her face. it's allllll good(:


okay anyways, prom! prom was hellaaaa fun. my mama was trippin' saying i had less time to get ready and shit. good thing i left school at 11 and got my nails done at 12. and make up done at 3. perrfect! i loved my nails, dress, hair, everything!! THANK YOU SO MUCH, JULIE FOR DOING MY HAIR! it fell though by the end of prom ):

after party at the hotel. pretty fun, surprised my mama let me spend the night out for once. my first time ever not going home. i remember i kept tryna go to sleep and waking up. but one time i woke up and the boys were still awake and it was light out already! oh geez, boys boys boys. don't ever sleep. victor kept snoring the whole night though! and i accidently kicked jaimie in the chest when i was sleeping hahaha! whoops. when everyone woke up, we just went to breakfast at dennys. and then off home to SLEEP SOME MORE.


senior ball= BEST TIME EVER. i wish it never ended.

i remember seeing him at his drama thing, and i thought to myself "he's pretty cute.. i've never seen him at school before". so i told the girls about brandon..and they all knew him! they started calling him prom date. weird..but i had a dream he asked me to prom. AND EVENTUALLY HE DID. it was cuuute. we went from being complete strangers at santa cruz, to talking for the first time at senior cut day, to spending everyday together during spring break. who woulda thought us two would end up going to prom together.

i hate prom

at the moment! but i love prom, period. today i hella cancelled my nail appointment just to go get the boyfriend's tux with him. and waited for his ass to get a haircut too! ugh, i really need to get my nails done. hella last minute shit to do tmrw! i'm sooooo annoyed with all this prom stuff. my mom was not trusting my schedule for tmrw. SO SHE ARRANGED EVERYTHING! right after i made all these appointments a week ago. she hella wants everything her way. it's annoying. but whaaatever. tmrw, i am so gonna leave school after lunch even if we're suppose to go to 4 classes, i'll get it excused. i gotta get my nails done at 12:30, and whenever i'm done with that i gotta go get the corsage and boutineer, get make up done at 3..and on the way home pick up julie so she can do my hair! omggg, i'm so scared there's gonna be hella traffic going to hayward tomorrow. I HOPE NOTHING GOES WRONG TOMORROW...


it's the last prom ):

zebra print garter!

it took me so fuckin' long to sew a piece of zebra print ribbon on brandon's garter. i was hella concentrating inthe beginning, but towards the end i was sooo lazy! i gotta fix it again..ugh.

I CAN'T BELIEVE PROM IS THIS FRIDAY!!!

MAY 19,

i hate how this person puts me down every time something is wrong. i don't want to feel that i'm useless. i don't want my self confidence to be at it's lowest point. but obviously this person has a way of speaking to me and making my self confidence to it's lowest point. i have never felt like this EVER.

"you're fucking amazing!
I see it every second i'm with you.
Thats why I know how great you are"

when i'm feeling down, i read what johnny bananas says to me

prom...graduation,

there's not that many days until graduation comes..
there's not that many days until we're outta high school..


these past few days have seriously been going by too fast! i really thought it was just another year of high school, and i couldn't wait to leave..but now since graduation is right around the corner, i'm really not ready to leave this school. once i finally start getting used to everything at this school and now it's time to leave. this sucks big time. college is like a total different chapter. a new chapter of life...i'm so glad there's still school after high school though. i am definitely not ready to go look for a job as a steady career.

BUT ANYWAYS, i've been spending tooo much money this month! prom tickets, corsage, boutineer, garter, supplies to make the garter..save money for prom pictures, shopping, AND I STILL NEED A DRESS FOR GRADUATION! i really like this one though...

i think it's cute. and it's hella simple, plus it's hella cheap! $12.50 for a graduation dress..not bad. this whole month is seriously dedicated towards prom! i just need to figure out where to get my nails done! so if anybody whose reading this knows a really good place where they can do fake nails and designs really good, tell me! i know where i'm getting my make-up done, hair's gonna be done by julie, eyebrows wax. i've been making brandon's garter for awhile! well of course i gotta give julie credits for helping me make it. i just had to put some finishing touches on it, and sew it to make it smaller. but i like it! i hope i'm gonna like the corsage and boutineer. i'm excited for prom! but i think i'm more excited to see the party bus. this was totally just about prom and graduation, kay bye!

respect

when you guys come into my house, respect this household. it is not a fuckin' hotel for you to throw your dirty ass underwear around. WAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS! i get blamed because i try and do something nice for a friend because it's her birthday. GROW UP AND HAVE SOME RESPECT FOR SOMEBODY WHO IS FUCKIN' NICE ABOUT OPENING HER HOME TO SOMEONE ELSE.


stupid ass people these days. wtf is wrong with you guys!




this prom shit hotel is so dumb! yeah, i'm their only daughter..but in my whole 18 years of life, i have never EVER spent the night out anywhere. but i thought since i'm 18 now..and it is senior prom, why can't i spend ONE NIGHT OUT WITH ALL MY FRIENDS. ;aklewjak;lej t i want to go to san diego so bad. i want to leave! I HAVE NO FREEDOM.

"Every mornin' I look at you and smile"

happy 18th;

well, i'm finally 18 today..and I'M HOME ALONE. wtf, my parents went to milbrae buuuuuuuut i'm not complaining 'cause i'm too tired to go anywhere today. plus, i have laundry to do and homework. wow, listen to me i'm talking about doing laundry and HOMEWORK on my birthday. it actually didn't end all that well, this sucks.


birthday party last night was hella fun! thanks to everyone who came and said happy birthday. there was so much food AND RED VELVET CUPCAKES/CAKES. wellll, i'll let the pictures explain itself 'cause i'm too lazy to type everything.

all thanks to indy's camera(:

Jacobbaby;

isn't this baby boy just so cute!? i miss him so much, and he's about to have a baby sister/brother!