red velvet cake...

sounds really good right about now. indy says he'll get me a red velvet birthday cake for my present! (:

so um, this boy really needs to shut the fuck up because he is so fuckin' stupid in his brain. is it just empty up there or what? what the hell is wrong with his mind, what makes him think it is okay to invite himself to my house and he has the decency to tell me that I need to grow up? i do have a lot of growing up to do since i'm only 17, but the way he came at me proves how much of a little ass boy he is inside an almost-19 year old body. boys like him really make me wonder "what was i thinking"


ANYWAYS! i was hella late to school today even though we started at 10:22! wth, right? since brandon didn't even pick me up today, i had to drive my old ass BMW to school with no parking permit and park on the streets! that is a long ass walk from the car to the school. wooow, never again! i realized i missed so much information in forensic bio yesturday..i should've went to school. brandon bought me mcdonalds after 5th period today, and i only finished half my food. SORRY. i bought 2 apple pies to bribe chris to go to tutor with me, but it didn't work! i gave it to him anyways... pay back for all those times he fed me food at his house and made me teawhen i was sick. i went home after tutor and cleaned my car. OH GOODNESS, THAT CAR IS SO DIRTY! my dad left the windows open and all these little pedals flew into the car. LAME. boyfriend came over, and we went to costco to meet up with my mama. food shopping for my party!! and then jamba juice and chipotle after. yumm, boyfriend went home when he so could've stayed at the house long. LAME. i see him everyday. LITERALLY, every single day. i love it.


i really want this weekend to come already. so a lotta people has been asking me what i want for my birthday, and they tell me it's so hard to go shopping for me, so HERE, I'LL MAKE A BIRTHDAY WISH LIST;

RED VELVET CUPCAKES

BROWNIES

TAPERS- SIZE 8 GUAGE

SKINNY JEANS- SIZE 0, 00

PLAID SHIRT- XS, S

LIPGLOSS FROM LANCOME: JUICY TUBE JELLY- BERRY BOLD

V-NECK SHIRTS - XS, S

LOTION/HAND SANITIZERS FROM BATH&BODY WORKS:
BLACK RASPBERRY VANILLA
PLUMERIA
SWEET PEA

BLACK VANS- SIZE 2 IN KIDS

KIDROBOT KEY CHAIN

NOTHING PINK, PLEASE!


DECORATIONS FOR MY CAR!!



does that help?

to my favorite,

honestly, you've made me the happiest i've ever been. you keep me smiling everyday, you keep me happy. you're wonderful.

"If I wanna try to count the ways
you make me smile
i'll run out of fingers
before I run out of time"

random much..?

PROM STRESS IS OVER. well, at least looking for brandon's prom stuff is stress free. yesturday we went to men's wearhouse..we couldn't find shit. and we went to selix today and found the perfect color for his vest and tie to match my dress. i love spending my days with him, it's never boring. every day together for about a month now. that went by realllly fast. i really loved the way he asked me to be his girlfriend. wow, that sounded really lame. and i hella ruined my surprise for my birthday present from him. I SUCK. but that's okay, he chose to tell me what he's getting me anyways. and i love it(:

i hate how the beginning of last week was hella hot..and now it's windy and cold! i'm so glad we don't have to go to school until 10 tomrrow morning. i really want some chocolate ice cream right now, but all we have is coffee ice cream ):

I'M GONNA TURN 18 IN ONE WEEK. how exciting is that..not really. birthday party saturday, and i wonder what i'm gonna do on my real birthday..this should be interesting to see. it will be a very memorable weekend.

boyfriend on 420 (:

it's true, you really don't know what you have until they're gone.

POTHOLES!

HAHA everybody fell in potholes tonight

you kept pushing me away and you finally pushed me to the point where i couldn't take it anymore.

"It started off great but who was to know
that love that is lost cannot be
let go you said it's my fault
ok then i'll go it's better to know now
there's nobody to argue with"

today fuckin' sucked ass. you know those days when you get to school..you just feel like there's something wrong but you just don't know what. and then BAM..one thing just ruins your whole day. i was in a fuckin' bad mood and i was rude to brandon after 5th today, i felt so bad afterwards. AW, I'M SORRY. it just kept getting worse too. but whatever, i got home, took my nap and i woke up to a text saying "we needa start over right now" that made everything better. and so we decided to go to the marina and watch the sunset. cute cuuuute. i wanted to paint my nails over 'cause they were pretty fuckin' ugly yesturday.

oh goodness..prom is gonna cost SO MUCH MONEY. prom tickets are.. $75!? plus getting nails+hair done, limo, pictures and hotel. wooooow. man oh man is my mama gonna be happy. brandon and i went to go look for lime green ties yesturday and we FAILED. my dress is too complicated. there's hella different kinds of green, yellow, white and black on it, wtf. there is no perfect green to match this dress. i shoulda gotten another color. but i fell in love with it when i first saw it, that's what's suppose to happen, right? oh whatever, i'm glad i have this dress. lets just hope we can find a tie+vest in a month, oh how this next month is gonna be fun stressing over prom.

"I can't get you outta my head and I never imagined a pretty girl like yourself would ever come into my life, you are truly amazing."

tell me that wouldn't make you smile


so, i read julie's post and that is such a cute way to be asked to prom! she's so lucky. i just got asked by having a stupid conversation. but i'm glad he asked me. there's nobody else i'd wanna go with..so i'm a happy girl (: okay, this was a pointless post.

april 9; happy one year to my license! yayy!


that "insane asylum" in alameda is not even a mental hospital and it is not even haunted! wow, we are so stupid for believing that shit.

today, i went to twin peaks with prom date, chilled, but it was too windy, cold, and foggy there. left and ate at in-n-out, THANKS PD. he got in the car and was like "here, this is for you"

isn't it hella cuuute!? it's filled with some yummy chocolate(:

to my everything;

april 8, 2005. today is our four years anniversary. it sucks even more that it's freakin' spring break and i STILL don't get to see you. not even today. i love you for always being there for me. being that one shoulder to cry on, putting some sense into me when i needed it. honestly we've had this up and down relationship for how many years..and we still manage to stay close. our feelings for each other have never gotten in the way of our friendship, and that's a really good accomplishment for us. even though we say we can't ever seem to be together, i'm always gonna love you.

"i dont know where life will take us,
but wherever it does, itll be good.
...so, im not gonna tell you a lie
by saying i like you, or i dont.
but i love you"

i'm not excited to turn 18 anymore. fuck it.

spring break!

hella good start to spring break. obviously..yesturday was senior cut day, i didn't go to school. the plan was to go to ocean beach and have a bonfire and what not, but once we got there it was fuckin' windy as hell. not good. so we all just went to golden gate park. i had hella fun for a day that wasn't planned out good enough. stayed there till about..6 or so, left and went back to san leandro. in-n-out then movies for fast and furious! i kept falling asleep though..hella long ass day! but ended hellaaaaa good (:


TODAY, sfsu preview day! pretty nice school, i'm not gonna lie. but i don't feel like going there. i'm just gonna go to csueb. better than nothing. oh, watever. i never planned on going there till like last month. ugh, but i guess that's not a bad school. the whole day was basically just devoted to sfsu. and thennn, basically tarah and i hung out with brandon, alex and victor till later. KAY, thats enough info. BYE!

cold...er!

today was more windy.. ):
happy april! a month and two days till my birthday!(:



i actually got my ass up and out my bed after my nap and washed/cleaned my mama's car for her before she comes home tomorrow! thank goodness i did, 'cause if i didn't..she woulda been so disappointed. her saying is "if you can drive it, you can wash it"



this is kinda sorta true, i guess.