I'm starting not to care.

Honestly, I've been thinking too much of it, I've been stressing over this for 2weeks now, and it really is time for me to not care about this shit and move on. Yeah, surprised I'm saying all this? I am. Some of you know what I'm talking about, and some of you don't. If you don't, lets just keep it that way. I'm so tired of sitting at home thinking what happened, what did I do wrong, how can I be like I was before all this. I don't want to think anymore, I don't want to cry anymore. I'm DONE. I'm starting not to care.

But once I start not to care anymore, you somehow make your way back. Like today.



I was just looking at prom pictures from last year..and boyy, I miss junior prom. BUT I do love this picture of Shaheed and I! We match perfectlyyy(:

fondue?

HELLO, whoever is reading this.

This weekend was a good one. Louie came to visit from Sacramento, spent the wholeeeee weekend with him! Picked him up Saturday, IN-N-OUT, and took him to Geoffrey's house to get a cut. And I left 'cause I had to go see Ivan. FINALLY got to see him again! I love spending time with that boy, he's probably the only person that I remember the date from when we first met andd ACTUALLY kinda sorta 'celebrate' it or whatever when that day comes. I really can't believe it's almost been 4years since i met him..I clearly remember it was on April 8, 2005 right after track practice, I turned around and saw him. Okay yeah, this is sounding lame, ANYWAYS.

Took bart out to Dublin/Pleasonton, he picked me up, blockbuster to see what movie to rent, and ended up getting LAKEVIEW TERRACE. I really thought that movie would be much more better than it was..it was kinda..lame. But whatever. We have never had such an interrupted day before! First, we forgot to go to blockbuster and just went to his place, he didn't expect his mom to be home from work till later 'cause she works out here in San Leandro, AND I kept getting phone calls/texts throughout the day! Do you know how annoying that shit was!? Getting phone calls one after the other. Oh whaaaaatever. Got hungry, went to Stoneridge, bought MickeyD's and CINNABON! YUMMM. Thennnn byebye Ivan and back to SL..

"The world keeps getting in the way
With you is where I wanna be"

This has got to be the somewhat cutest picture I took with him, well, says my mom.


So..Sunday I had to go do some shopping with my mamas and thennnn watched Coraline with Jasmine and Louie! Preeeetty cool movie, man. I liked it. I hate the rain though. Specially driving in the rain and not being able to see the roads very clearly..that scares the shit outta me. Louie didn't get picked up till about 11? He left me his itouch though since I paid for everything we did this weekend. AHH, I gotta start saving up some more moneyyyy! I'm BROKE ):

Oh, how we get bored..

FONDUE DINNER WITH TALIA FRIDAY! YYAYYAY.

Smallest things

I do nothing with my days except go on this laptop and watch ONE TREE HILL over and over again. I need to go out and do stuff, but my parents don't let me go out school days. Ughh, so protective, but whateverrrr. School sucked as always. Econ is so fuckin' boring, I swearrrr! Too bad Felipe isn't gonna be there tomorrow ): OH! And Chris was telling me his dream he had the other night! He had this dream where we went to an aquarium and he like climbed into a fish tank and started speaking WHALE!! LMAO he really did try to learn to speak whale from Finding Nemo though..weird. But anyways, I'm so happy I got 6th period off. The smallest things he does makes my day. Walked me to the car, hugged me, talked to me. I guess I needed it.

I can't sleep now 'cause I took a nap earlier today. This sucks, I'm not gonna be able to wake up tomorrow. Matt got fuckin' lazy to type on the computer so we webcammed! Sometimes I really hate this laptop 'cause I can't do all those cool effects while I webcam with people ): I'm jealous. I want a Mac now so I can do all those effects. BUUUUT whatever. ANYWAYSSSSSS, I can't wait until Saturday 'cause I get to see my bfffffff Ivan again!

Matt's so fuckin' weird. But I love him though! Been there with me this whole week while I went through all this shit.LOVE YA UGLY!

NUMBER 4

Past few days have not been my favorite. I have been through enough to be going through what I am now. I guess everything happens for a reason. Not the best Valentine's day, could be the worst. Not the best four day weekend. Other than all the bullshit that happened this weekend, basketball game last night was alright. Loud ass guys sitting behind us yelling hella funny ass shit. Spent time with best friend and Matt. Union City for some IN N OUT. Oh my, movies three nights in a row AND Union City three nights in a row. WOW. HEY, at least I wasn't sitting at home thinking and crying over something that I so don't need to cry about.

Shoppinggg with my mamas today! Got me some cute boots, which my mom is gonna steal from me sometime SOON. We were talking about grad trip, and she says I shouldn't go and I should just drive or fly to LA with my friends. I hope she keeps her word and still lets me go alone to LA with friends!

I just got a phone call that made my day. Chloe calls me asking for brownies and says she misses me! AW, that is so freakin' cuuuute! First thing she says is "I WANT BROWNIES!" she's the cutest baby girl ever. I miss her.

yes, i made another shirt. this time it's for demitrius owens!

"i'm just a little girl lost in the moment"

SO, I guess I've decided to have a blogspot because I haven't even blogged about anything since middle school. Let me tell you, there is so much I need to be learning before I graduate from high school. I honestly hate high school and love it at the same time. There is too much drama for me to handle, I don't feel like doing anymore school work, but at the same time I don't want to leave because high school is the safe zone. Once we leave, we can never go back.


My weekend so far feels completed. I got to see Vince who I haven't seen since August, and I got to finally hang out with Robert who I haven't hung out with since...oh who knows when. 8th grade? Watched Friday the 13th TWICE, two nights in a row, but I guess it was worth it 'cause it was with the people who I haven't seen in hella long. Ahh, went to chilis with Robert, and then watched Friday the 13th. We talked about all the memories we had waaaay back when i was a 7th grader, and he was an 8th grader. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT WAS..FIVE YEARS AGO!? Time's going by hella fast now.